This post is intended to remind me what I need and is written to mentor me and show me the correct path in times of anxiety , when the feeling of fear and uncertainty clouds my mind .I need something which reminds me who I’m , to which breed I belong to and where I’m heading towards and what I really want. This will act as a guide for me for next 7 months.
The Ultimate Goal
The ultimate goal of my life is to achieve freedom.Now freedom in itself is a broad concept.
But what I want to achieve is this. Freedom to work on things which I want.
To be wherever I want o be.To work whenever I want. To do whatever I want if it’s not troubling anyone.There should not be fear of any kind.Behaving the way I want o behave .
I’m free from feeling like reciprocity . I’m not dependent on any one in any way.
Freedom from this monthly salary and happy small family loop.
The 2BHK , flat , apartment ,rising and falling stock loop.
The marriage and insurance and that big car loop.
The friendly neighbors loop.
The constant complain loop.
The appraisal and increment loop.
Believe it or not these loops are infinite and you won’t realize , none of these will end before retirement and some will end only after death if I allow external things to control my life. Let things go the way they are. Working regular hours each day.
You see some extra push is needed to have something extra ordinary (freedom ) in my case.By putting the regular effort only regular things will fall in your pocket ,sometime a little bonus on that .But nothing more than that .So I’ve to work like hell a few days.Consistency is somethings very much I need.You know even a druggie can work for 22 hours a day when he is on drug.So sometimes I do the same and expect why my life is not changing.So I’ve to differentiate myself from such people. I’ve to prove that I can work hard consistently .With consistent extra effort only I can achieve what I want.Work like hell , keep this goal in mind.Remain motivated.Aspire to be free.
While this again looks very big.So lets start with something small.
Goals for nxt 7 months.
- Achieve some degree of freedom , by going ahead of what I’ve planned to finish. Finish things quickly by putting extra effort and utilize the extra time for achieviing you goal of freedom.
- Move closer to you ultimate goal. by clearing atleast one exam.You clearly know the list of exams which can make you free.
- Give your parents the things which they have missed because they were working hard because their son can achieve which they couldn’t .They could have enjoyed the luxuries by spendin everuthing they were earning and could have enjoyed their lives .But they did the opposite , saved every single rupee they could and invested that in education of yours .That’s a heavy debt on me , which I’ve to pay back somehow.
I’ll complete this post later.